Tuesday, April 20, 2004
If you find youself in love with someone who does not love you back,
Be gentle with youself.
There is nothing wrong with you
Love just didn’t choose to rest in the other person’s heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don’t love him/her,
Feel honoured that love came and called at your door,
But gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage; do not cause pain.
How you deal with love is how you deal with you,
And all our hearts feel the same pains and joy;
Even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with anyone, and he falls in love with you, and then chooses to leave,
Do not try to reclaim it or access blame.
Let it go. There is a reason and a meaning
You will know in time.
Remember that you don’t choose love, love chooses you.
All you can really do is to accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,
Then reach out and give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to the others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in any way you can.
That is where many lovers go wrong.
Having been so long without love,
They understand love only as a need.
They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love,
And they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing
But as their love cools,
They revert to seeing their love as a need.
They cease to be someone who generates love,
And instead become someone who seeks love.
They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift,
And that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this, and keep it to your heart.
Love has its own time, its own seasons.
And its own reasons for coming and going.
You cannot bribe or coerce it, or reason it into staying
You can only embrace it when it arrives
And give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart,
Or from the heart of your lover,
There is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad it came to live for a moment in your life.
If you keep your heart open,
It will come again.
i said at 11:51 PM.
Friday, April 09, 2004
watched the passion of christ today.. it was very brutal, too much for mi to take, to be exact.. i'm speechless... ok.. diz is a stoopid entry.. i juz wanted to say that i've watched the most disturbing movie, ever, in my life..
i said at 12:03 AM.
Sunday, April 04, 2004
had yan2 xi2 ying2 over the weekend... it was quite fun la... was talking to zq, ivy, mj & ws late on sat night, and as usual, zq started talking about his xu1 wei3 policy... after talking so much to zq, i realised dat my distance from him is getting bigger and bigger, esp in terms of values.. as in whateva i deem morally incorrect (him selling huang2 liu2 huang cheng tix), he'll use his economic terms to justify it (eg. opportunity cost etc..) hmmm.. maybe i'm in no position to evaluate him, but i suddenly feel dat he's very jian1 zha4, xin1 ji1 hen3 zhong4... maybe this is will make him a brilliant businessman? haha.. but nonetheless, we've known each other for so long liaoz, and he was a large influence to mi... i still treasure our friendship very much...
it felt good to see mj and ivy again... 3 sisters catching up with each other.. heez.. diz yr's camp felt more like an opportunity to meet up with pple whom i dun get to see very much of.. like panda, zhen ling, even ivy and mj... suddenly felt very old as we were looking at the younger ones yesterday.. going to be promoted to xu4 le4 bu4 soon.. oh no... :P
after stepping down from the 6th exco, i guess the whole com will be dispersed.. i realli feel very yi2 han4 dat we didn't haf the chance to work together very much due to SARS last yr, coz we were a very strong batch of exco members and wud be able to bring things up to greater heights.. bao4 guan3 has given mi alot.. in terms of leadership training, as well as a bunch of good friends.. love them..
the best friend i've known thru bao4 guan3's probably brother.. he's the one who was truely by my side when i needed alot of support.. i guess it's onli in times of adversity do u see who ur true friends are.. looking back, i'm not very confident dat zq wud even bother to listen to wateva i haf to say if i realli wanted to talk to someone.. he'll juz pass it off by saying i'm a ben4 nu3 ren2... to a certain extent i'm very disappointed with zq... anw, back to bro.. he has also been a great help with bao guan stuff... without him things wud prob haf been in a big mess, considering i'm such a blur blop... :p thx for everything BROTHER!!
kayz... i'm quite shag now... didn't sleep well yesterday.. shoulders aching summore... and what more? panda smashed my glasses! my lens actually broke into 3 pieces.. he needs to cut weight manz.. heez... :P
i said at 11:28 PM.