my hand hurrrrrrtsssssss..... so pain........................

anw, i'm so pissed with hotmail.. i cannot log in becoz they keep saying dat my account is temporarily suspended due to too many unsuccessful attempts of logging in.. arg... and i cannot reset my password summore.. i'm trying to sign up again.. which means i have to inform everybody my new email, and hopefully pple will change my email from the yahoogroups thingie.. if not i'm never gonna receive group messages.. and and and! i muz get my msn contacts all over again.. oh man.. how troublesome can it get....

my hand hurts... all dat dumb ice cream.. dun work for v*n*zia pple... the lady boss very ke4 bo2 one...




work is super tiring.. esp during night shifts... how i wish i'm still studying.. i miss going to school! i miss school.. i miss the pple in school... i miss the simple life...

th broke my heart on thurs.. he let go of my hand when we met his friend along orchard.. haiiz... i noe he didn't mean it, but at dat moment, i felt like i was nothing to him... he didn't try to do anything to make up, and i was so sad dat night that i called my close friends whom i thot might be in town.. kristy, xun, siying, zq, bro, zeh, xin, and even yifong.. in the end, bro insisted dat i met up with him at tpy, and i'm glad i went.. i let out everything, all the little things dat have snowballed.. i think i haven't cried so hard ( and so loud) in a long time.. brother said the whole of tpy could hear mi.. oppz.. i can still feel a tinge of pain when i think of the incident, but i think i should juz let it pass, as usual.. we have so little time left together, and sometimes i dun feel dat he even treasures the time we have left.. i need some assurance from him, which he is not giving mi.. i need to find back that xin1 dong4 de4 gan3 jue2..

anw, i wonder who actually reads my blog.. i noe my "fan base" is not very big, but i wud still like to noe who's reading.. so if u are, juz leave a note on my tag board k? thankyew!




EVERYBODY!!!! I STARTED WORK TODAY!!!!

heehee... i'm working at venezia.. the new outlet near my house.. although it was tiring, and my arm realli hurts (the ice cream was so hard), but it was fun! heez.. i think i'm loving my job.. great!




i accidentally cried in front of him today....

i'm sorry... i didn't mean to make u worried.. i'm sorry dear..





zq & bro! 




xun the pretty gal.. 




dat's my class.. 




th & i! my fav pic of the night! 




sistas! although kristy looks so dark..  



it has been a super happening week!

dammit! i juz deleted my whole entry! i gotta write again! dammm.....

prom was on the 8th.. nothing very WAHH about it, but it was still ok, apart from the food.. ritz should realli consider changing chef.. i took so many pics with so many pple.. i'll try to dl diz funny programme so dat i can show u pple the pics, budden no promises! i'm bad at tech stuff.. heez.. xun didn't get prom queen, although i thot she looked realli pretty dat day.. wat a pity.. at the end of the whole thing, J gave mi a mug and a card as a "goodbye gift".. he also apologised for everything he has done.. i guess time has dampened everything, and i'm not exactly angry with him anymore.. :P walked back to the hotel (where my classmates were) with th after my talk with J.. although it was juz a short walk back, it was lovely! it's so amazing how his mere presence can make mi so happie.. it's juz dat simple! went to the HC party at coco latte after that.. although onli 7 of us went (kristy, ben, mi, th, phyls, beejie, hh), it was still fun.. but but but, it was so crowded! it was literally "butt rubbing against butt".. luckily we managed to dance on the stage where we could breathe.. and i've never seen th so crazy before.. haha.. we muz go somewhere again! maybe zouk, if xun goes for the inter jC beauty pageant thingie.. heeee...

after the whole thing, it suddenly daunted on mi dat it's the end of JC life.. it all happened so quickly.. 2 years is juz too short, don't u agree? i wouldn't say i realli like HC, as i still like the rafflesian spirit more.. but but but, i definitely like the pple in HC.. :P i did make very good friends, like my bez sistas in class.. si, siying, kristy.. although xun and i sorta drifted apart diz yr, she's still a good friend of mine.. and th of course! heehee... they're simple pple, and dat's why i love them... :D

woke up at 5.20am yesterday and headed straight for changi airport.. J was leaving yesterday, and i accompanied xb there.. xw and cy went too.. alamak.. xb was so sad, and i felt very xin1 tong4 for her too... haiiz.. i realli hope she wud walk out of the whole thing soon, and i'll always be by her side.. girl, muz be strong k? give urself time and space.. time does wonders..

went out with zq for lunch yesterday.. it was so fun! realli missed the time when we wud go out for meals and juz tok.. it was heart-warming to go out with an old friend.. maybe i was too cynical during yan xi ying, when i said he has changed.. although i don't always agree with some things that he has done, he's still a friend who noes mi very well... zq is still zq.. the good old zq is back! happie happie... heeee...

it's already mid dec, and the clock is ticking.. when i sent J off yesterday, i could already feel the pain of sending th off.. he might ask mi not to send him off, but i noe for sure i wud go.. i wanna go.. i noe i wud be very sad, maybe a 100X worse dat xb, but i wud regret if i dun go... urg.. why can't time juz freeze now, then th won't haf to leave.. oh manz.. i'm such an ostrich...