qy, zq, me, mj! haha.. i think i mj and i look alike leH! haha! how come i dun haf her brains!! 




brother.. :) enjoying life in scdf. haha.. 




bao guan gang.. :) wonderful pple.. check out my hair! it's long..  



i went to send mingjing off this morning.. her flight was 6 plus(am), which means check in at abt 5 la.. not wanting to pay for a cab to changi, i went to bk and ton for the night..

mingjing, the girl i haf most respect for.. she's such an inspiration.. i won't say i'm extremely close to her, but we've always had a special bond between us.. she's one of the few friends that i wud do anything for.. like today.. i knew i shudn't haf went to the airport, but i still decided to go so that i can ting3 her and qy.. well, yah, i did cry quite badly.. i guess you pple noe why la.. haiiz.. i cried, i cried.. think i sorta freaked zq out.. he was like "aiyoh 林思齐, 不要哭啦!".. i realli envy mj and qy.. they haf so much faith and believe in their relationship.. i'm sure nothing wud come between them.. it's a blessing to haf faith in love..

i slept my sadness off.. although my eyes still hurt, i'm feeling better.. pics coming up.. :)



剪了一头清爽的短发, 有种莫名的勇气, 让我可以继续往前走..

剪掉.. 把所有不开心的都剪掉.. 开心的, 就把它藏在心里, 永远保存..



说个故事给你听...

从前有位小天使, 她很喜欢帮人.
利用她的法术满足世人的欲望,
藉此感受曾被她帮的人 身上所发出的幸福气味.

有一天, 小天使遇见一位诗人.
他年轻, 英俊, 有才华, 富有, 而且有个美丽的妻子.
但他仍然不开心, 求小天使帮忙, 带给他一些幸福.
小天使想了很久, 才想到办法帮忙这位诗人.

有没有人猜到小天使使用什么办法?

其实小天使什么也没有变给他,
反而变走了诗人原来拥有的东西.

半个月后, 小天使再来找诗人,
但诗人已经变得很很潦倒.
接着小天使就把诗人原来有的东西变回给他.

再过半个月, 小天时再去见诗人.
诗人很感谢小天使带给他的幸福.

其实人很奇怪, 往往要失去了才懂得珍惜.
其实幸福很多时候已放在眼前.
幸福根本没有绝对的定义.
平日一些小事往往能触动你的心灵, 是否幸福只在乎你的想法.
想拥有幸福就要懂得珍惜,
珍惜你眼前的一切.



had my first history lesson today.. on nation building of singapore.. haha.. it was realli enjoyable.. i was one of the few year 1 students in the class.. and i realised a distinct difference between science and arts students.. in my chem and stats tut, no one speaks a word.. we juz listen to our tutor and juz absorb whatever the tutor throws to us, like a sponge.. history tut today was super fun! pple juz threw their ideas out, and the tutor was seriously interested in listening to our views.. for once, i feel like uni classes can realli be fun.. :)

today's the 26th.. well, things turned out better than i thot it wud.. i kept the promise to myself, i didn't shed a single tear today.. luckily i haf a bunch of uni friends who were sweet enuff to offer to pei me today.. eating ice cream helped quite a bit too.. i'm grateful to the pple ard me.. things seem to be changing for the good.. grateful, i realli am.. thanx peepz..



u're prob asleep on the plane to LA now.. :) i was very happie to receive ur SMS from korea.. i had such a long and tiring day today, but when i saw ur sms i smiled from ear to ear.. :D

uni is sth u've looked forward to all ur life.. although u had to give up everything here to go UMich, it's a decision u've already made, don't look back.. haha.. i noe u won't.. thank you for bringing all the joy and comfort to my life.. thankyou for making me who i am now..

friday's the 26th.. 2 mths liao.. it wasn't easy.. i noe deep down inside, i'm still hanging on the the edge of the cliff.. but now, i've finally plucked up the courage to let go... it's gonna be a slow and painful process, but i'm letting it go.. fall to fly.. yes.. i can fly.. i will fly..

no more baby, no more dearie, no more bao bei.. juz plain jay and han..

thx for everything.. :)




BigO's bailey's cheesecake makes me happie! it's plate licking good.. :D 



是什么让我听见你说
是什么让我以为你在身边经过
是不是太过和平的分手
才让人更舍不得放手

象失了魂魄不愿放过
有你的感觉和任何有你的线索
挥之不去的寂寞是不是说
这份你已经丢下的感情
我还执着

我游荡在记忆深处
寻找残留下的温度
我在风吹乱头发的街上
怀念着幸福

我在镜子面前无助
我在梦里慌乱追逐
我在只有我的深夜里醒来
感到孤独



finally! i get to wake up at 9.30am.. goodness.. i had 8am chem lect yesterday, but woke up at 7.30am! and zeh was like"we're not going to catch a cab anw, so wat i do is i'll take bus and miss my first lect".. haha.. so that was what i did la.. :D i better WAKE UP next time!! dun wanna miss lects again.. :)

went for kendo's welcome tea yesterday.. haha.. i would say i am talented in the sport, or issit i'm talented at whacking pple?! hahaha.. anw, i hit right on target lor.. right on the head! haha.. but, i didn't run fast enuff, so the senior was like chasing me with his bamboo sword.. hahaha.. it was realli funny! ivan and ang teng soon couldn't stop laughing.. but, i think i won't join the sport.. buying the armour and gi would easily cost up to $500-600 for the worst quality one.. sian diaooo.. how i wish my family was a bit more well off.. den i would be able to afford such stuff.. i'm not even going for basic sailing course with ben (benjamin, not benedict! haha.. he's my OG mate) anymore coz it's 100bucks, although i thot it would be quite fun.. sighhh.. i better not anyhow spluge nowadays.. i need a decent schoolbag! coz i totally tore zeh's bag apart.. was contemplating on buying the cheapest crumpler bag, but i think now cannot liao... better keep some spare cash by my side juz in case anything happens.. haha.. i'm juz ranting.. coz i've lived under such circumstances for so many years liaooo.. money money money! haha.. :)

should i take out all our neo prints from my wallet? should i take out our ring from my necklace? should i not look at our pics anymore? shoud i not even tok to you at all for some time? it's realli hard to forget abt you.. even with friends ard, it's still hard.. i'm comfortable with the relationship we haf now.. i noe we're not tog anymore, but we still tok online, email each other, and that feels very much like we're still tog.. a part of me feels happy coz i get a little bit of comfort from toking to you, but a part of me tells me that it is onli going to prolong my misery.. sighh.. so am i supposed to listen to my mind or listen to my heart this time? when can we truely be friends again?



it's scary, how everyone in uni is chiong-ing to mug.. goodness.. totally stressed me out la.. so, as usual, kiasu jaymie has decided that since everyone else in her OG is study, she'll start to study too! haha.. it's sunday today, no one asked me out, so i'm staying home to catch up with my work.. i'm blogging now to take a break from all the organic chem and functional groups! hahaha.. :)

i've had a pretty happening week.. went to 唱K 3 times this week to prepare for yesterday's singing comp auditions.. haha.. i thot it was a NUS thing, but to my horror when i was already there signing up, it is an inter-tertiary comp! haha.. well, i sang 爱多少 早知道 by Melody.. i practiced alot, and the last time i sang it b4 i went in for auditions, i thot i sang well enuff... butttttt, i was so nervous!! think i screwed it up... quite sad abt it, but oh well, at least i tried.. maybe i'll participate again next yr.. :) hopefully hendrick will get thru diz rd and we can all go support him! haha..

heard another bad news yesterday.. another break up.. haiiz.. as i've said, it's a season of lost love.. i'm juz one of the many.. babe, if u're reading this, i want you to know that there are many pple in this world who love you.. i'm always ard if u need a listening ear.. rmb the emergency no, 24/7 k? *hugZ*

"jaymie.. whatever i say doesn't matter anymore.. it wouldn't change anything".. 现实是残酷的, 我已经学会不再抱任何希望. 你所给我的一切回忆, 我会慢慢地把它收起, 然后不再去碰它. 每当我想起我们的一切, 我就会哭.. 每当我写下我们的点点滴滴, 我也会哭, 就像现在.. 我是不是很傻?




annabelle and i after rag.. hendrick at the back trying to get into the pic again.. :D 




seniors making their successful jump after much effort.. 




guys jumping with ben on the floor.. :D 




the 3 girls left surviving! 




circle of trust! 




smoking with hei1 bai2 pei4! 




eating snake from rag! 




our hands after slapping game! annabelle's hand is to act as a contrast.. :D 




acting cute on last night tog! 




formal grp photo with sadako! can u see her?? 




paul getting camou-ed on his bdae! 




us after F.I.C 




dun smile dun smile! 




poor marc letting us tie his hair! 




seniors :D 



today was the grand finale of Science Orientation Week (S.O.W).. i had a great time, with super funny OG mates at seniors.. we had a lot of fun together.. :D and science fac won!! whoohoo!!

this year's SOW's theme is scienemania.. so every OG was a movie la.. my OG was THE RING.. (RING RING.... *ELLOZ ELLOZ.. MOSHI MOSHI??*) haha.. good and bad things happened, of course.. good things first.. we became more bonded that i thot we wud be.. coz during the first day, we realli couldn't mix tog.. but the stay over nights made us closer, as we play indian poker, the name game, MAHJONG, dai dee, bridge etc etc.. haha.. yah we brought 2 sets of mj to camp and we played thru the night, dun need to sleep at all.. i think we realli very 厉害man.. i didn't sleep at all yesteday night... so shag now.. althought i already took a 2 hr nap.. ok now, the bad thing.. i realised that pple who look nice and harmless on the outside can be realli mean and insensitive.. i experienced it myself.. :(

SOW was fun becoz we all played very hard! haha.. and this is prob going to be last camp i wud ever haf throughout my schooling years.. felt quite sad on fri night when we were singing together as one big group of campers.. it feels like we didn't haf enuff fun.. it wud be great if we could haf another week of orientation man! haha.. but i think i wud be too shag to even eat by then. :D friendships have been forged during this camp, btn our OG mates and seniors, but i realli wonder how long it'll realli last.. in uni, u'll be constantly meeting new pple every sem when you change mods.. how much effort are we willing to put in to keep our friendship going? it is realli likely that we wud all juz be aquaintences to each other at the end of the day.. i dun want that to happen.. they're the first group of uni friends i made.. i realli want to keep them close.. i realli hope i could do more to bring us together.. i hope we'll still go out often! hahaa.. :)

on a sidenote.. it has been weeks since th left me.. i spent many nights sorting out my thots, forcing myself to face it.. face the fact that he'S REALLY not going to come back.. paul was telling me the easiest way to forget a person is to find another one to fill the space in my heart.. but seriously, finding a rebound is the last thing i wud ever wanna do.. meanwhile i'll juz enjoy singlehood, which may not be a bad thing.. time and space is all i hope i can give myself, and i hope i wud haf the inner strength to go through this phase, and walk out of these dark times feeling stronger than ever...