had a realli long, tiring, stressful and lousy day today....

1) i onli slept for 2 hrs yesterday.. 6-8am.. yes..
2) i din do as well as i expected to in the CA.. my first 5mark qn is wrong..
3) gave marc moral support while he was rushing the changing landscape essay..
a) NEVER ever go to the YIH study room.. it's like a freezer there.. i couldn't stop shivering..
b) i played marc's psp for 3 full hours non-stop until it ran out of batt..
c) i had a super bad splitting headache due to lack of sleep..
d) the essay assignment was due at 5pm, but we (actually marc did all the writing) onli managed to finish at 5.30pm.. MAD RUSH.. SUPER HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE.. with ALOT of luck and by God's grace, we managed to get hold of the TA before she left.. otherwise our assignment would be considered late..
4) i just got home.. because i overslept on BOTH my trains..
5) i feel like puking now.. think my body's too tired.. it's too lazy to digest the food that i've eaten, so it just wants to regurgitate everything all out..

it was a crazy day.. i haf no more energy.. i'm just going to lie on my bed and act dead for the rest of the night.. i'm so, SO GLAD that it's finally all over.. phew..



slogging thru the night again.. for tmr's biochem CA.. arghhhh...
i'm glad i had your company! for as long as you could tahan.. haha.. i'm on my own for the next 4.5 hours.. :) my dad just made me supper! whee!!~ hungry hungry.. :P

pia pia pia pia pia pia pia jiayoU!!



kristy dedicated this song to me today..





all is not lost!!! yays!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~



had my last sociology lecture today.. my lecture, Dr Alexius A. Pereira, attempted to explain the following concepts.. rmb he's a sociologist, not a biologist! :)

Artery - a tertiary study of the heart
Bacteria - the back of a cafeteria
Cardiology - Chow Yun Fatt is an expert at Poker.. So he's a master of cardiology (card-iology)
Dilate - pple dun like to die early, they like to die late :)

anw, thx for the chocolate jin! it was REALLY sweet of you babe.. :) i can foresee a really stressful week ahead.. with God's grace i'll be able to pull through in one piece, hopefully.. please keep me in prayer..

came home, switched on my lappie and did my usual blog surfing routine.. found out that somebody moved her blog.. i've lost my one and onli contact with your life now.. sigh.. 注定..



it's amazing how time flies doesn't it?
has been 9 mths.. 3/4 of a year.. we're too far apart now.. and you're running away from me.. 你的逃避让我失望.. 算了.. 不再去想这么多了..
zeh.. i'm sorry.. i dun even noe how to redeem myself.. sorrys..



PSALM 23 Student's version and NKJV version!

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not flunk;
He keeps me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leads me beside the water cooler for a study break;
He restores my faith in study guides.
He leads me to better study habits
For my grade's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown;
For You are with me.
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
You give me the answers in moments of blankness
You anoint my head with understanding,
My exam paper runs over with questions I recognize.
Surely passing grades and flying colours shall follow me
All the days of my examinations;
And I shall not have to dwell in this college forever.
Amen!

hahah.. :P

The Lord is my Sheperd; I shall not want

He makes me to lie down in green pastures:

He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul:

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil:

For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies:

You anoint my head with oil;

My cup runs over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

all the days of my life:

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

wrote a post, but decided to take it down..
don't promise me anything anymore.. it's all a pile of shit..



你用浓浓的鼻音说一点也没事
反正又美又痛才是爱的本质
一个人旅行也许更有意思
和他真正结束才能重新开始

几年贴心的日子换分手两个字
你却严格只准自己哭一下子
看着你努力想微笑的样子
我的心像大雨将至那么潮湿

我们可不可以不勇敢?
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办

我们可不可以不勇敢?
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难道不能坦白的放声哭喊?
要从心底拿走一个人很痛很难

好像在唱给自己听一样..

siying kristy si brother
mj 33 survivors tianhan tianhan
zq xiaobin mummy 73
carol wx & ant ecyn xun

missing you people.. esp on this sleepless night..

i was just looking through ALL the pictures i haf in my lappie..

nostalgic.. yeh.. very...

sometimes i wonder why we haf so much space in our brain for memories.. why can't we haf a delete button, such that we can choose wat to be retained and wat to be forgotten.. reminds of the movie, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, where jim carrey and kate winslet erased their memories of each other after their relationship turned sour, but after the procedure, they happened to meet again, and fell in love again.. meant to be? or not? (okay.. now i wanna watch this movie too.. haha.. one more on the list..)

actually i dunno why i'm still hanging on.. i no longer hope that we'd get back tog, coz i noe that wud never happen.. i just can't explain why i can't let go.. maybe God wants me to hang on, so that i'll be single for a longer time, for being single is the best time to serve the Lord.. i bear no grudges, no hatred, no watsoever against tianhan.. for him, i onli haf love.. it's just that i haven't been able to transform this love from a romantic one to a friendship one.. my heart onli has space for 1 person.. noone wud be able to walk into my life completely before i am able to let tianhan out..

i guess i'll never be able to find someone else who loves me as much as you do.. someone who'd tolerate all my nonsense and still find ways to hong me and make me happy.. someone who can effortlessly make me happy just by holding my hand.. someone who doesn't throw his temper at me.. someone who's as funloving as you.. someone who'd put in so much effort to make presents for me.. someone who'd give me so much assurance.. someone who'd make me feel like a princess.. someone who can make me love him so deeply..

maybe our breakup was too peaceful and amicable.. that's why it's so hard to let go..



wanna watch this show.. too many movies i wanna watch.. 太多了.. haha..




Lord, I pray for a man, that will be a part of my life
A man that really loves You more than anything
A man that will take me in the second place of his heart
A man that lives not for himself but for You
Face and physical attraction aren't important
The most important thing is I want a heart
that really loves and is thirsty of You
and has a desire to be like Jesus
And he must know for whom and for what he lives, so his life isn't useless
Someone that has a wise heart, not only a smart brain
A man that not only loves me but also respects me,
A man that not only can adore me but can warn me when I'm wrong
A man that loves me not because of my beauty but of my heart
A man that can be my best friend in every time and situation
A man that makes me feel like a woman when I'm beside him
I'm not asking for a perfect man, but I ask for an imperfect man
So I can make him perfect in Your eyes.
A man that needs my support for his strength
A man that needs my prayer for his life
A man that needs my smile to cover his sadness
A man that needs my love, so he could feel beloved
A man that needs me to make his life perfect

And Lord I also ask ...
make me a woman that can make him proud
Give me a heart that really loves You
so I could love him with Your love, not love him with only my love
Give me Your gentle spirit so my beauty didn't come from outside but comes from You
Give me Your Hands that I always be able to pray for him
Give me Your eyes so I could see many good things in him and not only the bad ones
Give me Your mouth that is filled with Your words of wisdom and encouragement so I could support him every day
Give me Your lips that I could smile at him every morning
And I want that when finally we meet
Both of us could say How great Thou Art
that You give me someone that can make my life so perfect
I know that You want that we meet at the right time
And You will make everything beautiful in Your time

Amen.



*ATTENTION!!!! i'm sorry to pple who did the previous survey for me.. some things cropped up.. so now i created the exact same survey on another site.. please PLEASE help me do it again k? thankyou thankyew..

i'm in desperate need of help!! please help me do this survey.. it's very very simple, won't take you more than 2 mins..

http://www.my3q.com/go.php?url=jaymielin/37283
(this is the new url ;)

thankyews! no limits to how many times you can do it.. if you wanna be nice and do it a few more times oso nvm.. :P please get ur friends to do it, and ur friend's friends and friend's friend's friend too k!! pls pls PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!



everybodY!! go read ben's blog! haha.. you can find the link on the navigation bar on the left.. :)
when i finally sing the song, i shall give myself closure..

没有你
music: ben
lyrics: jay

一整夜, 一直无法入眠
想着你, 想着我们的一切
你渐渐走远,我看不见
心中的无奈,让自己体验

你忘了曾经许下的诺言
现在的我们已画上句点
故事的最终还是没有
公主和王子的天长地久

没有你的世界里, 我变得软弱
只好一点一滴, 慢慢去摸索
没有你的世界里, 我寻找解脱
把散落一地的碎片
拼好之后
收藏在心里
永远不再触碰

还要多久,我才能够放手
不再让回忆淹没我
在这灰暗的天空画上自己的彩虹

i'll sing it when i'm ready.. :) ben i wanna sing!



i haf a LOVE-HATE relationship with mugging..
LOVE: it keeps me busy and my mind off things.. and it's thru these stressful times that i noe who really cares.. :)
HATE: it keeps me SO busy that it saps away EVERY drop of energy i haf..

ok.. i'm going to blow my hair dry, make myself another cup of tea, and continue mugging.. maybe it's a 20% love, 80% hate relationship i have with mugging.. hahaha... i'm just bored! everyone's asleep! (other than marc who's a nocturnal animal like me) i can't wait for the CA to be over! only then can i sleep in peace...

ok... back to mugging.. hope i can sleep by 4am.. but i think i'll prob onli sleep by 5am..

*end of complaining* :P



who wants to watch these movies with me??!?!?!? i'm deprived of movies!!