just came back from vigil service..

it was just so hard. to see the sorrow and pain the family is going thru.. you could see the tiredness, the swollen eyes, and their forceful faces that tried to hold back the tears.. si qiu's death was shocking.. he actually came in top 10 in the race b4 he collapsed.. vanity of vanities, all is vanity..

many turned up today.. the sanctuary was full and they had to put pple in the 2nd audi.. everyone had heavy hearts.. saw a group of army guys who sat together during service.. many of them were crying, some even uncontrollably.. i was no exception.. i'm never good at goodbyes and deaths..

i heard so many wonderful things pple had to say of si qiu.. how he gave generously, a faithful servant of God, a respectable and highly regarded captain of the army, and how he hopes that he may become a pastor one day.. he's also cloud's 2IC in the army.. i read his post, and i'm touched that he had such a great impact on his fellow men..

he was a man who lead by example.. he was well loved by many, and will always be remembered fondly by us.. i so wished i could haf known such a remarkable man personally..

we will grieve, but we must allow our wounds to heal.. please pray for his family..

i'm tired.. i need to bathe and sleep..



this is the 2nd one this year.. andrew's mum, siyu's brother..

it hurts me to noe that pple are deeply saddened and broken with his sudden departure.. it's realli at such times when our faith is tested.. he may just be my sis's goodfriend's bf's brother, and i've never seen him before despite being in the same church, but i still feel the pinch in my heart.. it's gonna be a though period for pple in bethany, esp for siyu's family and yiyong..

these are also the times when i realise how weak i am emotionally..

it's already so painful for me, i can't imagine what they're going thru now.. we must REALLY cherish the pple around us.. do not take any day for granted.. it seemed like a harmless marathon run that takes place every year, but the next thing you noe is, you can't even say your last goodbyes.. i can't imagine losing my loved ones under such sudden circumstances..

it's a time to grieve, but it's also a time to look unto the Lord and stay strong in His word.. at least we noe he has gone home to the Lord, which is the best place anyone can be.. there would never be answers to why such accidents happen, but we have Jesus.. We'll pray..


sorry if this post is incoherent.. i can't gather my thots..



DO YOU NOE that Zac Efron (Troy) and Vanessa Hudgens (Gabriella) from high school musical are together in real liFE!?!?! oh my goodnesssss... how sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet is that!!! haha.. anw, found this clip on high school musical 2, called Gotta go my own way.. brings back some memories.. bout how, when we reach a crossroad in our lives, we gotta make a choice of whether to stay or go.. leaving behind things that are dear to us, so that we could move on and become who we really wanna be.. but afterall, i guess i understand.. :) oh dear! gabriella's gonna break up with troy in HSM2!!! i dun wanna watch it anymore... haha.. :P i want them to stay together!





high school musical! it's my new fav movie.. i REALLY liked it alot, although their actions are a little dramatic.. hahaha... take some time to load the songs below.. they're VERY nice!! :):):)











the falling down season has arrived! *CRIES!!!* i fell on sunday during blading.. (ok zhichuan dun laugh!) the frequent and heavy rains do not make me feel any better either.. i've *almost* fallen many many times already.. i'm living in FEAR all the time!!! to make things worse, i had prac today, and for the next 2 days.. which means i need to wear lab coat.. i can't wear skirt, coz it's shorter than my lab coat and i'll look like a flasher *imagine pls*.. i wore berms today.. wat am i gonna do for the next 2 days!! ahhhh.... anw, below is my scraped and bruised right knee..


anw, i posted a new song on my blog.. it's sun yanzi's wo huai nian de.. listen to the lyrics.. it's so sad and mellow, the super cmi kind, the kind i like.. hahaa.. i think i seldom haf much affinity for hippy happy songs.. :P but still, it's a nice song.. i was searching for it on imeem, and i found one version done by a guy.. dunno who he is, but it's quite nice.. can check it out! :) http://kongnir.imeem.com/music/nvCTMhDN/wo_huai_nian_de/







update!

school started yesterday.. my timetable's not the best, but i'm not complaining.. 5-day week, with alternate 4-day weeks coz my labs are on even weeks.. time flies.. i'm already in yr3.. looking at all the freshies brought back some sort of bitter-sweet memories.. haha.. :)

i'm concentrating in biomed, ben's doing bio.. so i'll see much less of him this sem (and prob next too).. but nvm.. less time seeing him = i shall channel all my attention and energy into my work! i'm determined to be a #1 mugger *again* this sem.. realli need to pull up my CAP.. dun wanna be hovering in the danger zone btn 2nd upper and 2nd lower anymore....

hokay! here are the modules i'm doing..

LSM3211 - Fundamental Pharmacology
LSM3212 - Human physio. cardiopulmonary system
LSM3233 - Developmental biology
SW2104 - Human development over the lifespan
GEK1001 - Place, environment, society

hopefully these modules would be very interesting and intellectually stimulating.. :)

school aside, things are a better in church too.. you noe, i eventually moved over to ben's church despite all the struggles and objections from pple, and i'm starting to feel like things are starting to change for the better.. i guess i'm starting to find my place, my role, and getting more used to the style of worship.. i still stand firm on my grounds, the things i believe in, and the things that have been instilled into me when i was in bethany.. but i'm adapting well now.. so thank God for that.. also, driving has been quite ok, other than me being absolutely reckless.. i've been into numerous near-accidents already.. hahaha.. and NOOO i'm not going to tell anybody when's my test date until i passed.. :) i pang-tang.. too bad!!!! :P

sorry for the wordy and picture-less posts... i noe it's boring? hahaha.. but it's just to update pple.. if you read every single word of all my boring posts, i LOVE YOU! coz you care bout me to take the time to read!!! hahahahahah... sleep tight everyone!



just came back from dilys's bdae party! it was a nice cosy little gathering of pple, her friends and family.. :) it was like a class gathering too! haha.. the usual few of us.. the game we played was very fun! haha.. it was some bang bang card game.. very interesting.. jiaho! i wanna play again! :) pics soon when dilys uploads to class blog.. :)

went to corrinne may's concert on friday.. with siying and jm, and of course the bf.. double date... :P it was a very good concert! corrinne may's singing was so good, it was as though i was listening to the cd.. the atmosphere was good, and lighting was the best i've ever seen! hahaha.. my money was well spent.. :) i was very inspired by her throughout the night.. i admire how she is able to write such good music, such good lyrics using such simple words.. and along the way, she never forgets to use her songs as a tool to spread God's love.. words such as "a child in the manger", "33, the age you died for me", "the mystery of your love for me" etc etc.. i look up to her because i feel like she uses her music to evangelise in her very small ways.. i like her! i realli like her!!! :)

listening to her CD now, and here's a small part from her song called "five loaves and two fishes", which is a famous bible story..

"Take my five loaves and two fishes . Do with it as you will . I surrender . Take my fears and my inhibitions . All my burdens, my ambitions . You can use it all . I hope it's not too small"

i noe my work is not too small for the Lord.. felt very encouraged when i heard this song. surrendering is difficult.. i'm still learning.. :) still listening to the rest of the CD.. will write more about it.. her songs are so moving i'm almost in tears! haha..

take some time to listen to her CDs.. hope you'll share my sentiments too.. :)