I was never a rich kid, and will prob never be very rich. Deep in my heart, I always wanted expensive stuff, materialistic me.. I wondered when I will be able to afford expensive branded stuff, and no longer have to envy others who have so many of them.

But after listening to what pastor barry and uncle khin said yesterday, i ate my humble pie.

I may not have expensive LV bags to carry, or expensive sunglasses to wear, or eat at restaurants frequently, or go shopping and buy things without thinking very carefully.. I have monetary constraints, but I'm considered a very lucky girl compared to others..

I have a roof over my head.. My parents may not get along, but I still have them with me.. I may only have $10 allowance a day, but I never had to go hungry.. I was fed, I just didn't have "stuff".. On hindsight, i realised all my "stuff" were not bought by me! They were all gifts, from my mum, sister, friends and boyfriend. I may not have many, but I have some. They may not be very very expensive, but are stuff that I can't afford on my own.

I am rich with relationships. I have my parents. I have a loving and supportive sister.. I have 3 best girl friends who always have my back. I have church friends who run with me in my race.. I have a boyfriend who's my best friend, and i noe he will be forever..

Most importantly, I have God. I am not blinded from the truth, and He changed my life ever since I accepted Him.

"Stuff" may be how people define themselves, but it will not be how I define myself.. I don't want to yearn for expensive stuff anymore, and i pray that the Lord will continue to teach me how to be contented..

I have my own style, and not have to copy others..

I am me, and I noe all of you love me for who I am. :)







I wonder why I'm here slogging like shit for exams.. this should be the prime of my life, isn't it? but i feel like the sorriest little thing on earth.. and it's not like i get to rest after my exams.. i gotta pia my lab.. yes lab..




toady's 3rd nov 2008, which marks the one year anniversary of my grandmother's home-going.. it's a bittersweet day for me.. as i'm glad that she's home with the Father where there is no more pain and suffering, i'm also reminded of what it means to lose a loved one.. we always tell each other to treasure our loved ones, but how often do we conveniently forget about that and just think of ourselves? i'm guilty of it.. sometimes..

so, in an attempt to set things right today, i've decided to cook for my 2 loved ones (out of many) who can tolerate my no-QC cooking.. and i'm baking! i hope the brownie would turn out awesome and my sis would LOVE IT! i've never once succeeded in brownie land, but my sis never fails to finish everything up.. haha..

i think i'm becoming izzie stevens from grey's.. i didn't cry today.. i just baked.. :)